Don't You Just Hate It When...

I know in this post I might come off as a jealous whiny bitch but don’t you just hate it when the person who you are supposed to call your ‘best friend’ completely ditches you because she got a new boyfriend? Because I do.

Okay so don’t get me wrong, I am very happy that she found someone special to share her life with for however long they date but it’s just that I feel she has completely changed. Before she got with her new boyfriend, we were close and we used to meet up all the time and hang out and gossip but now I feel that she has just dropped me from her life. At first, I was a little bit jealous that she had a boyfriend and I didn't but I got over that fact and I understood that when she first started dating him that we would not hang out as much and that she would go to him first before coming to me – which I was perfectly fine with. At the start of their relationship she split her time between him and me but now it is just him. She doesn't really talk to me anymore; in fact she doesn't even acknowledge me anymore. Her main focus now in life is him and getting pissed – very different from the girl I used to know and like. I understand that in life we change and grow up but I cannot get my head around how quickly she went from being an innocent year 11 to being (what I can only describe as) a provocatively dressed alcoholic.

Whenever I do try and speak to her she is always sharp and often comes across as bring quite rude – the very opposite of what a ‘best friend’ should be.

A couple months back she asked if we could meet up for a girly day, a day in which we could catch up and have a gossip. When I met her she told me that she could only stay for 2 hours as she had to get home and help her mum prepare for a sibling’s birthday, which was fine because I just wanted to spend some time with her where she wasn't all over her boyfriend. However, to my surprise the girly day ended up with her texting her boyfriend literally every 5 minutes whilst I was trying to talk to her and she seemed very distant from me – almost like she wanted to spend the day with her boyfriend rather than the girl who is supposed to be her ‘best friend’; which to be honest I thought was very rude of her and that was what made me start to dislike her. I started to realize that ever since she got with her new boyfriend she had become quite a cow towards me and after ranting to my mum about this situation I realized that she probably thinks that me and her are still alright with each other (she does not know that I am having feelings and ideas that I may call off the friendship we have).

I know for sure that if we do mend what’s left of our friendship then I am going to regret this post and will probably take it down. But, I feel that this is too important to ignore and to be honest I just can’t deal anymore. If you have ever experienced situations like this then comment and let me know how you dealt with the feeling of being pushed aside and only being called on when they wanted something from you.